Chapter 7 David Pelzer

I never would think that I would be so hungry that I would eat pancakes out of the dogs dish. As years passed the beatings got worse and worse. I just kept praying that mom would die and her soul would go to the depths of hell. I hate father now because he knows the hell I go though and he lacks the courage of saving me. I began to think that their was no god to help me. I smeared the word assholes to my brothers because they started hitting on me too. I knew they had to see the hate in my eyes for them. I pray and I pray but my life seems to get worse and worse. I hate my life so much I just wish I could be free from the pain. All though mom just keeps hitting me but I can never cry because I don't want to give her the befit of the doubt. I hate my family.

Chapter 6 David Pelzer

My life is worse when father is away. After the knife accident dad spent less and less time at home, and more time at work. I hate my mom so much because this moment scared me the most she filled the tub up with freezing cold water and held me in the the water to where I could not breathe. I kept hitting her to try and get my head out of the water then I dug my nails into her shoulder and she let go she said next time ill hold you down longer. This is times where I want my dad lots because I feel so safe around him. I just know he is  my protection from mom. Sometimes I wish I would die because I hate my life. I just keep wishing I could get way from mom and all the abuse. But everyday my life seems to get worse and worse. I just pray things will get better everyday. I miss you daddy.

Chapter 5 David Pelzer

This part of my life was very hard. When mom was yelling at me and calling me names I started getting scared. She was drunk and had no clue what she was doing. Then she fell and I started feeling pain in my side.  I think I was stabbed by mom with the kitchen knife. I looked down and noticed all the blood just pouring out. I was in so much pain I fell to the floor. She told me to go do my chores. I could barely stand to do the dishes. Every time I moved I was in so much pain I fell to the floor. Mom came in and cleaned my wound. It hurt so bad when she cleaned it that I just wanted to scream. Then I ran to dad and told him what mom did he said that I had to go finish my chores before mom catches the both of us. So I ran from dad and did my chores. After the accident mom started being a little nice to me. I got to do fireworks with my brothers and I got dinner that night. After that night the pain was so bad I could barely move. from then on I was scared of mom and I want to never leave my dad. I hate mom so much.

chapter 4 david pelzer

Sometimes i wonder why i am the only one to get hit all the time. I wish mom would be the way she used to be.I hate when i have to see my brothers getting all the love. Everyday i wake up wishing that  mom would love me like she used to.  My life is always a living hell. I pray everyday that i can break free from this pain. My dad will not help me anymore and he is my only hero. I am always getting in trouble at school for stealing food cause mom does not feed me any more. i hate having to lessen to the family eat. Most of the time i dream about food. It makes me very very hungry.  I wish mom could give me some food more often. my life sucks cause i have to do all the work around the house with nothing in my tummy. I wish my life wasn't so hard.  I cant believe how when i stole that food i came home and my mom made me regurgitate the food and eat it again this made me feel so sick to my tummy. Mom does nothing but hurt me now i just wish she knew how much it hurts me to not have any love from her anymore.