chapter 4 david pelzer

Sometimes i wonder why i am the only one to get hit all the time. I wish mom would be the way she used to be.I hate when i have to see my brothers getting all the love. Everyday i wake up wishing that  mom would love me like she used to.  My life is always a living hell. I pray everyday that i can break free from this pain. My dad will not help me anymore and he is my only hero. I am always getting in trouble at school for stealing food cause mom does not feed me any more. i hate having to lessen to the family eat. Most of the time i dream about food. It makes me very very hungry.  I wish mom could give me some food more often. my life sucks cause i have to do all the work around the house with nothing in my tummy. I wish my life wasn't so hard.  I cant believe how when i stole that food i came home and my mom made me regurgitate the food and eat it again this made me feel so sick to my tummy. Mom does nothing but hurt me now i just wish she knew how much it hurts me to not have any love from her anymore.